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She makes me want to mother her. Not to worry. I never treated her as anything but an adult.
I'm also kind of excited for her. Because she's excited with the excitement of a seventeen year old who's never headed out on her own. And I'm a little bit jealous because she's going on a road trip with the boy she loves to plans she's optimistically thrilled about.
Oh, to be seventeen again...
But I'm sad. Because I'm not nearly as optimistic as she is. Because we'll never eat popsicles for breakfast and talk about travel plans together again. Because I never met her brother, never saw her step-dad's straw house construction, never talked to her about things I think are most important. She taught me I'm not quite as confrontational as I think I am. Especially with someone I don't know and wish I did.
And I'm selfishly sad. Because I know in two weeks I'll be talking to myself again. I'll be sitting on my couch eating a meal I cooked for myself. I'll realize I'm more comfortable if I know someone else will come home. Or that, even if she rarely emerges, there's someone else in my other room. And I'll realize How much I don't like living alone.
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When my roommates ditched (slightly diff scenario though... ours was a huge blow-out), I went through that for a bit as well. It was hard, and I know I often avoided going home because I didn't want to be there alone.
*hugs* If I were moving to BC and/or lived there, I would totally apply to be your new roomie.
And I would totally accept!
Yah, my roomies and I are splitting ways in a couple weeks too. Them to go home, me to go back to a clinic full of need and a city full of smog. Yah, it's kind of lonely. What will I do without my nightly debrief? Without someone to make me vegan pancakes and share the peanut butter jar with?
I haven't ever had a roommate but my ex-husband. I'm getting one soon just to help financially and reading this post had me almost to tears. Especially the "to be seventeen again" sentiment. ahhh those were the years. Kris, I know it's going to be hard to be alone for a while, but if you need anything...even just a chat. You have my number. Just shout :D
Thanks for commenting, Meg.
And, Angela. This was a really awesome comment. I mean, I shouldn't be happy that you were "almost in tears." But I guess I got my sentiment across.
I hope your new room mate works out! It's a pretty big deal, living with someone.
I'm also glad you understand my nostalgia for seventeen. :)
This was beautifully written.
Living alone can be really difficult sometimes, but also kind of rewarding. It really depends on how you approach it. Good luck <3
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