I wish it didn't happen. I get to thinking about where I am, what I'm doing, and who exactly that makes me. Very very dangerous questions. Especially when you don't have good answers. And dammit, I do not have good answers.
I like to redirect my energy. I love skating hard and scoring goals. I like getting slammed into the mats by kids with brown belts. I like pretending the little things I've accomplished matter.
I love arguing. Always have, always will. It's a skill I've honed until I'm pretty good at it. Which is too bad, because that's not a beneficial thing. Especially when I don't have anyone to argue about anything worthwhile with.
Either that or I employ frighteningly brilliant avoidance tactics. The fact that I have no television doesn't even help that much. I'm just that good.
And I don't get Seasonal Effective Disorder. Yeah. Right.