I like talking about deadlines. It makes me feel important. I like having to reference my schedule. What it comes down to, I think, is that I enjoy being productive. I thrive of knowing I'm getting things done (and maybe a little bit of stress). And keeping busy allows me to forget that I'm staying in one place. I like forgetting stuff sometimes.
But if left to my own devices I'll sleep in 'till ten and stay up to late. I'll get distracted by Youtube, novels, and my guitar. When I get frustrated with my wasted time I'll go for a pathetic run and maybe check my mail and pay my bills.
And I hate that. Procrastination is my worst trait.
I like when writing and a cup of tea is time to unwind instead of it being something I've accomplished.
Yeah, I was a bit of a burnout when I didn't know what I was doing, and it didn't work to go anywhere. If I don't work, I'll go crazy. And I know it.
So, I've packed up my schedule. And it's doing me good. Do you secretly like being busy?